Last night as I was falling asleep I had the craziest thoughts – they were so random that I tried to remember what they were so I could blog about them, but no such luck. They couldn’t have been that exciting so it’s probably just as well. I had actually stayed up late reading a novel which I hardly ever do because I know that I’m grumpy as all get out when I don’t get enough sleep but I’m really glad I stayed awake reading last night because I read something that I liked – but first I’ll back-track.
When I came home last night from an unsuccessful shopping trip I found Jason at the kitchen table taking mud off his RC Car (he had put a plastic table-cloth down so I didn’t have to freak out) and I started helping him so we could chat. And I think that I was complaining to him. At the time I thought I was just sort of airing my views on things, but he told me to stop complaining and of course then I got offended and told him that he should be supportive – because that’s the thing we wives say to our husbands when they try to interject some common sense into our lives. So then I thought well maybe I had a negative view but this is how I legitimately feel about things so isn’t that OK? But I stopped airing my views and went to bed where I stayed awake reading a novel by one of my favourite authors, Alexander McCall Smith. I like him so much because he gets people – he really understands what makes people tick and that’s how he can write from the perspective of a 40-year-old African lady detective in Botswana when he is a middle-aged professor of medical law at a Scottish university. Amazing really So toward’s the end of “The Double Comfort Safari Club” I read this…
“Do not complain about your life. Do not blame others for the things that you have brought upon yourself. Be content with who you are and where you are, and do whatever you can do bring to others such contentment, and joy, and understanding that you have managed to find yourself.”
I liked it – I felt like it was a little reminder from God that the opposite of complaining often tends to be contentment. I do tend to complain – and it’s usually about problems that I’ve brought upon myself to boot. I do find myself extremely frustrating at times… I like a clean kitchen but I can’t put away things after myself. I like a good sleep but I can’t get to bed early – the list could go on and on. But I am as God made me and I have to stop beating myself up! I was reading Psalm 139 to William the other morning and here’s a verse that I love … verse 14, “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” So even though life isn’t going to be perfect and I’m not perfect, God made me and His works are wonderful! 🙂 Now, if I just stop complaining, put in my little stake of contentment, and not focus on the negative – I can use that energy instead to glorify God and serve Him and serve others – and that is where my joy will come from.
See, it is great to stay up late!