Thankful

So rather than blogging, I’ve been spending my time wracking my brain trying to come up with a new blog name.   Just in case you hadn’t noticed, in about 7 weeks or so this blog name won’t be accurate (see previous posts)  as there should then be just the 7 of us.   But that name just doesn’t have the same ring to it,  plus it’s already taken.  So if anyone has a good blog name idea they would like to share with me, please do so and put me out of my lame-blog-name-ideas misery.

But back to this post now that I am actually writing…. we’ve been enjoying the fall here.   I of course love the cooler weather (keeps me from swelling) although when the forcast for this past Thanksgiving weekend showed very cold and rainy – I was worried about it being a little too cool, especially since we had been planning on spending the weekend at the unheated cottage.   But Jay and I always cook our goose by telling the kids days in advance that we are going, and even though we half-heartedly tried to talk them into an exciting weekend at home, it didn’t fly and  so we went.   Not to mention the rest of Jason’s family was going to be there and if we didn’t go we’d miss out on Thanksgiving dinner – and that certainly wasn’t going to happen.

So we went, and were chilly occasionally, but for the most part had a nice relaxing time.   And the turkey was amazing and the pumpkin pie was all that it should be so the cool weekend was completely worth it.  We even got some beach walks in and attempted a picture of all four kids together.  Since our expectations are always low we are never disappointed when everyone isn’t looking at the camera and smiling.  We take what we can get. 🙂

For Jason and the boys this was their second weekend away.   The weekend before they and a family friend Patrick headed up to a canoe/camping trip up North at a place Patrick has been going for over 20 years.  He took his boys when they were young and Jason used to go with them occasionally, and now it’s so cool that Jason and our boys are going.

I had no desire to go camping in my condition, but when I saw the pictures I was a bit jealous,  it was so beautiful up there…

And the boys absolutely loved every minute of it.    And I was so glad that they could spend some quality time with their dad before things get all crazy here and our family gets separated for a while when we’re at the hospital with new baby.

And how are we doing other wise?   Pretty good everything considering.

I’m still dealing with my own failings of not being able to see my own limitations and so I know I’m trying to do too much, and when I do I get tired and cranky.  But there really seems a lot to do!   Being pregnant with number five at my age is no joke in itself apparently.  But God is being faithful and He’s giving me grace to get through each day and even though the first week of December is coming fast, with His help I know I’ll be ready.

And this is the time of year to be thankful… and there is a lot to be thankful for.   I’m starting to realize that in tough times thankfulness and gratitude are great ways to keep one’s heart humble and joyful even when it’s tempting to focus on the problems and feel all discouraged and down.

I was encouraged this weekend when a friend who just went through a tough time had the same thoughts and shared them with me – that it’s so much better to focus on the support and comfort that God has provided during a rough time instead of just being focused on why God isn’t fixing everything for us.   And I think that’s the key for us too.

And there are so many things to be thankful for!  The list would go on and on – and actually I’ve just inspired myself to start a thankfulness list for when I get discouraged – nice!    I’ll definitely be putting on this list that I’m truly thankful for a God who never leaves us or forsakes us.  I’m thankful for so many amazing friends who have come along side me to do all sorts of things, like take care of my kids,  help me pitch my junk,  garden for me, provide emotional support and even shop with me!   And Jason and I are also blessed with four healthy kids and parents that love us and support us no matter what.

How can I not be thankful?

And focusing on God’s goodness towards us does feel much better than focusing on what is going wrong.

And so I can truly say today that even though I’m still sad and it’s not fun to be faced with a baby that’s going to be born  neeeding so much medical attention,  there is still joy and I’m very very thankful for all the good things in my life.

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3 thoughts on “Thankful

  1. just wanted to let you know that we are thinking and praying for you. my sister stephanie vandertil who goes to Peoples you may know her. I heard your story through Anne Booy and Eriin. My sister is currently studying at new tribes missions in Durham and has friends who I believe that are going through what you are going through with your baby. THis is there first you can read there story at http://markandlauren.org/2012/10/12/update-on-baby-leo-2/ facebook group http://www.facebook.com/markandlaurend they are in London at the hosptial currently but looks like they will end up at Toronto and she will be induced at 34 weeks which is just a couple of weeks away

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