Ruin my life

Oh these crazy followers of Jesus Christ, and the crazy songs that they choose to sing!

Why would anyone sing a song asking God to ruin their life?  Talk about very scary stuff.    And to be honest when we first started singing this song at church I was a little bothered, thinking that I’m not singing that,  I like my life just how I like it, thank-you!

But then we got pregnant with number 5 – that huge surprise.  And we sang the song again at church on that first Sunday after and I cried.  NOT that I was thinking that God was in the process of ruining my life per-see… but that His plans were clearly not my plans.. here’s what we sang…

Woe to me I am unclean
A sinner found in Your presence
I see you seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

And the plans that I have made, fail to compare, when I see your glory…

Ruin my life  – the plans I have made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place
‘Till its You alone I live for, 
You alone I live for.

Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty 
Holy is the Lord! 

Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty 
Holy is the Lord!   ( Jeff Johnson)

And so it’s kinda become Jason and my theme song through this whole pregnancy situation if you will.    We do now feel in a way like life as we know it has been ruined, I know whatever the outcome of this pregnancy is, we will have been changed forever.   But the amazing part it, we will have been changed for the better.

God is taking hold of our lives.   And even though I cling and I fight and I cry and occasionally think about how my life would look if none of this happened,  I can see that striping all the external stuff away, letting go of all my plans of how I thought things would turn out,  and just focusing on God and doing my best to be obedient and having faith in Him is so incredibly beautiful and rewarding.

There is an amazing sense of peace that God has given me as my time gets closer (thanks for praying everyone!) and I know that any strength I have has come from him.     And we can know for certain that this is His plan and His alone because He has taken such incredible care of us through the past months,  which brings me so much joy because I can know that I don’t have to worry about one minute of one day going forward, He is going before us and will take care of us.

And in this world where the biggest thing seems to be control…where we feel like we always need to be in control…  just know it’s all a sham.  We have so little control.    But don’t despair,   when God starts to move and plans and lives start to be ruined,  it doesn’t have to be negative, just cling to Him and move with him and it can truly be the best thing that ever happened to you.


8 thoughts on “Ruin my life

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  2. Lisa,
    It is truly a blessing to see your family walking through this trial and clinging to Gods Word. Thank you for opening yourself up to us and being real in front of our eyes. All for God’s glory.
    We are and have been and will continue to uplift your family in prayer. So glad that God designed us not to do life on our own but to surround us with other believers.
    Can’t wait to meet birdy and praying that the master physician heals her!!

  3. Hey Lisa! I’ve just caught up on your blog and am amazed that you are having your baby girl in the next few days! Wow! Know that I have written you on my calendar and will be praying and praying for miracles and joy and peace and strength and faith in our awesome God. He is able. I wish I was there to give you a hug before you go, so I’ll send a cyber one instead.

  4. Thanks SO much for sharing Lisa!
    That song always gets me too!
    I literally cried reading this post…when you said “and even though I cling and I fight and I cry and occasionally think about how my life would look if none of this happened I can see all that stripping external stuff away, letting go of all my plans of how things would turn out and just focusing on God and doing my best to be obedient and having faith in Him…”
    That was/is me. I still have my ‘moments’ to this day but I continue to trust Him and He gets me through it day by day (minute by minute some days!)…I know my God is sovereign and I know His plans are for my good…and they are for YOURS too! 🙂
    God is doing some amazing things in and definitely through you! I for one have been blessed to see how God is working in you!
    Bless you and your little one…can’t wait to meet her!
    Continuing to pray for you!

  5. Love that song. Thanks for updating, It’s wonderful to watch God work through the Colleys! We love you guys and are holding you up in prayer! Is it this coming weekend that you head to TO?

  6. I’m always so encouraged by your faith and so thankful for the peace God continues to provide. I can’t wait to meet this sweet little birdie girl we have been praying for. God had used my own girl to break me and change me in so many ways- and I often think- what a tender God we have… that He would use the miracle and blessing of a child to refine me!

    Love you Lisa! You know you are never far from my thoughts and prayers. ❤

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