This morning when I walked in the room to see Ava it seemed that a cloud had lifted… her fever is gone, her heart-rate is back in the normal range and her oxygen saturation looked great… so wonderful. As of yesterday Ava actually seems to actually want the CPAP when she was tired, crazy baby. The doctor on rounds this morning said these little ones figure out pretty quick that they feel much better on it and so get used to it, or even want it pretty quickly.
But still, no smiles for mommy. I have been careful the past week to distance myself from all the negative things they do to her, like suction her, or do pokes for blood-work. But I’m afraid that my sweet little Birdy still associates me with ouchy things since I’m always around. But hopefully as I make sure to not be around when they happen, and then just swoop in and comfort her when they are done, maybe she will learn to trust me again.
And so in terms of what lies ahead for her, we just continue to wait. And waiting is very hard, and very stressful. Especially through these ups and downs and she’s experiencing. Things that frankly are surprising the doctor’s and nurses that she is surviving through. We definitely know that God’s hand must be upon her for her to still be with us.
So like this verse below says, we will keep waiting and trusting the Lord to keep us strong.
24 Be strong, and let your heart take courage,
all you who wait for the Lord!
P.S. This next verse was the verse of the day today on Bible Gateway… loved it…
7 The Lord will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
8 The Lord will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore.