Last night Jason and I watched Nik Wallenda walk a tightrope over river gorge near the Grand Canyon on TV. Talk about nerve-racking! To be honest I was only half watching and part way through when I wasn’t concentrating Jason yelled “He’s falling” and I whipped my head around to see the TV so fast I’m surprised I don’t have whip-lash.
Well thankfully he didn’t fall, Jason was just having some fun at my expense, but I found the whole thing way to tense. And I think that’s mainly because I feel like Ava’s the one walking the tightrope right now… complete with scary episodes where she almost loses her balance and falls off the wire. Thankfully by the grace of God she didn’t die this past week and has steadied herself, but it doesn’t mean the journey ahead is less precarious or that I’m not worried that she might fall off again. What a crazy journey to be living.
But she was transferred back up to 4D today – the hospital’s Cardiac ward. It really felt like coming home and everyone was happy to see us back. And Ava must have been glad too because after a nap she finally smiled at me!! Me, her mom, she smiled at me…. something she hasn’t done for days. It was wonderful to see her happy and content and I know that she’s pleased to be out of the critical care ward.
And so it was a good day today that followed a great day yesterday that I had with Jason and the kids. Ava was so sleepy yesterday that we took advantage of her one-on-one nursing care in the CCU and took a bit of a break from the hospital. We went as a family to church and joined our Harvest Oakville family for worship in the morning. And wouldn’t you know it, but the sermon yesterday was “when Faith needs a boost” and it certainly boosted our faith… we were reminded to look up to Jesus, as the alternative is looking inward and self-pity is definitely a faith buster. 🙂 We were also reminded that just because we don’t see God working doesn’t mean He isn’t working, and that the greatest work God is doing is the work that we can’t see. Cool huh?
Jason and I left very encouraged in our faith and we were so thankful that God had led us to church that morning.
We also sang a song during worship by Matt Redman… ‘Never once’. It really resonated with us. Love these lyrics;
Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Words that Jason and I can echo for sure. So even though our little Birdy is on a wire, we know that God has her in His hands and we just have to keep looking up to Him and trusting Him completely. Even when times are incredible tough and it hurts so much, we can attest to the fact that God has never once left us to walk this difficult journey alone.