Too much excitement

Well Ava had a great day,  I wish I could say the same thing about myself!

It all started when I was sitting holding and rocking Ava around 9:15 am this morning in our room at the hospital, when I noticed a queer ache in my side.  It quickly progressed to needing to put Ava down and going to sit on the bed/couch in the room, to having to lie down in the room, to having the cleaning lady in my room bringing me the garbage can so I could be sick.

The pain on my flank and side was so incredibly bad that I texted my friend Tanya who was across the hall to come and she got the charge nurse to come see me.   She noticed how white I was, and they took my blood pressure and then put me in a wheel chair and rushed me over to Toronto General hospital, which thankfully is just across the road.    I was in agony and thankfully they got me in quick and stuck an IV in me and gave me morphine.  Now I have had 5 children and have never had an epidural and I swear this pain was much much worse than child-birth, and that’s saying something.

The morphine helped and I was conked out, but around 12:30 pm the pain subsided, right before they came to get me for an ultra-sound.   They didn’t see anything on the ultra-sound, but the tech was pretty sure I had passed a kidney stone, as she could see some evidence even though she couldn’t see a stone.     I eventually left the hospital at around 3:30 pm,  without the Dr’s at Toronto General really saying anything, other than the ultra-sound had all been clear, so I went back to Sick Kids.   But when I talked to Paula,  Ava’s  nurse practioner this afternoon,  she thought that I definitely did have a kidney stone as she had one two years ago with the exact same symptoms.    Can you believe it?    I just have to praise God that I passed the stone in a matter of a few painful hours, rather than a few painful days, but I’m just in shock that I had one at all.  Really, after everything else we are going through, I had to have kidney stone? 🙂     It’s cool though because our prayer team at church kicked in right away and I know that made a difference and I wanted to say thanks to everyone who was praying,  thank-you and know that God heard your prayers!

And the rest of our family is doing well, the kids are having a ball at Oma’s & Opa’s and Sarah is enjoying the time being an only child here with us.  Even though she’s spent quite a bit of that time with Tanya (Aleeda’s mom) who has been amazing and watching her for us while Jason and I have been spending quality time with each other at such places as the hospital. 🙂

Ava had a good day today too and she’s got just the best smiles for us, but still is very dependant on her CPAP.

Thanks again for your prayers, especially on day’s like today that contain too much excitement!

I hope He will…

Ava is seven months old today – where is the time going?     And she was  feeling a bit better which was nice to see.    She got a blood transfusion yesterday so that helped her hemoglobin levels and that meant her colour was better and she had a bit more energy.    But she was still a bit congested with extra fluid, and that made her tired quickly, but thankfully she was able to come off of her CPAP for over 4 hours today so that was a huge improvement over the last few days.   She is still battling low-grade fevers that go hand-in-hand with higher heart rates,  but at this point the Dr’s are starting to think that they are heart- function related.   So we all just keep a close eye on her and give her Tylenol to help bring her temp down, and make sure she gets lots of rest with her CPAP which keeps her heart rate down.

And we got a little chair for Ava to eat in today!     The occupational therapist and I have been attempting to give Ava solids for a while now and today she was really enjoying her puree pears and took 15 mls of milk from a sippy cup!   Which may not seem like much, but for Ava is a huge feat and I was very very proud of her… sweet little miss.

But the big news today in Ward 4D was that a heart finally came in!!!   There hasn’t been a heart come in since April,   and with so many kids waiting for transplants it was getting discouraging for everyone.    So all the dr’s and nurses were pretty pumped today.   Now it obviously wasn’t a heart for Ava, or even Aleeda which is too bad… it went to another baby who is 3 weeks younger than Ava.   And that gave me the opportunity to discover that no matter how happy you are for that other family, it’s also a very emotional thing to realize that their child now has a chance at life when your child might not.    In this case however, the transplant nurse today was very open in saying that because the heart was coming from far away it needed a recipient that could receive it quickly.    And the little baby that got it had never had surgery before and he was going to be straightforward, whereas both Aleeda and  Ava have had surgery before and the operation would have taken way long on either of them (that’s assuming it would have worked for either of them) and the heart wouldn’t last that long.

So the way I look at it, is that the little baby boy who received a heart today, received the heart that was meant just for him.   That means I don’t have to be jealous or upset, and praise God I’m truly not.    But it does make me happy to realize that hearts actually do come in…. it’s pretty exciting.    And everyone says that hearts come in waves, and if that were true than more are on their way and who knows… maybe Ava and our friend Aleeda will get their hearts soon!     How wonderful would that be?    I know that I have renewed my prayers for a heart for Ava, I know God can provide one… so I hope He will!