I had a bit of an emotional day yesterday. And no, it wasn’t because of Ava, it was because of Sarah… or I guess because of her diabetes. Since we’ve been home and the care for Sarah has shifted from Jason to myself, I’ve been going at it for two months now, but it struck me that this is not going away… ever. And it just seems so huge.
I guess it’s just that some days it’s just so over-whelming. Like Thursday night when I made dinner and then sat down to figure out the carbohydrate count of the meal… for some reason it just ended being so complicated and I just couldn’t figure it out and dinner was delayed and it was extremely frustrating. And then there are the days when Sarah doesn’t want to check her blood and flinches when she gets her needles and I just want diabetes to be gone and I just don’t want Sarah to have to deal with it for another day.
I’m so grateful to my friend Kim who was doing some research on Type 1 diabetes on Thursday and sent me some pins and then I went looking for some myself. So I’m not sure if she found these or I did… but I like ’em…
And this one, the definition of bravery….
And of course this one…
Hahaha. But once again God is faithful and He gives us the peace and the grace to deal all the ups and downs of diabetes. Through the times when Sarah’s sugars are out of wack and we don’t know why, or when we think about the upcoming seasons of candy and treats and having to find a way to make it all work for her, without making her feel stigmatized or left-out, and without making her resent her siblings or them resent her. Sigh. Oh the challenges life throws our way.
And speaking about challenges, please pray for Aleeda and her mom Tanya. Aleeda is our little friend from Sick Kids who received her new heart at the end of July, but is still in the hospital dealing with some feeding issues. Before her heart transplant she was doing a combination of oral feeding and being topped up through her ng tube at night. But now the doctors have decided that she needs a g-tube, a surgically placed feeding tube that will go directly into her stomach. I’m excited because I actually have a plan to go to Toronto on Monday to spend the day with Tanya and Aleeda and our other friends at Sick kids, so I would really appreciate your prayers just to ensure my health stays good between now and then so I don’t carry any unwanted bugs to Aleeda.
Please also pray for little Leo, another one of our cardiac friends who is having major surgery done at Sick Kids on Monday. We are so grateful he will be in good hands!
I’m so thankful that I serve a great God who knows all about challenges, and has promised that He will give me everything I need. That why I love this verse,
2 Peter 1:3 His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,
I can just rest in His promises. Praise God.