Mama Pancreas

November is Diabetes awareness month!   I should have posted this last Friday on World Diabetes Day, but I’m not that organized.    Now perhaps I should have named this post ‘Mamma and Papa Pancreas’;  but as I’m with Sarah all day, every day now–I really do feel like I can safely call myself Mama Pancreas without stepping on Jason’s toes.

Sometimes, actually lots of times, quite often really,  I tend to forget just how much Type 1 Diabetes has changed our lives,  and more importantly how it has changed Sarah’s life.  And this is the part that makes me what to stop and have a little cry for my daughter who needs insulin pumped into her around the clock, who wears an electronic device 24/7, and who can’t remember what it’s like to go a whole day without pricking her finger at least 5 or 6 times.   I know she would love to just go back to those days where she could just eat something, anything, without having to stop and think about how many carbs it is and then tell her pump that number so that she gets enough insulin to cover that food.   To not have to endure a site change every three days, where we freeze a little patch of skin on her tummy, and then insert another infusion site into her, and then have to put up with the rashes from the medical tape and spots on her tummy from previous sites that hopefully one day will fade.

Whew…. diabetes is not fun.  But we do have lots to be thankful for still, yes even in this.   First of; it’s a great day-in-age to have diabetes because they seem to be getting closer and closer to a cure – or at least effective work-arounds all the time.   So that is exciting.   And to be able to wear a pump and have the control that we have over Sarah’s blood sugar is wonderful too – even if it does mean I get the privilege of checking her blood sugar before I go to bed and sometimes even in the middle of the night.

And I’m so thankful that Sarah is who she is–a strong brave girl who doesn’t let diabetes get her down.   She swam all summer long, and was in and out of the lake and pool like a fish.  She plays hard outside and inside and it hasn’t stopped her from doing anything she wants to do.    Once in a while she breaks down a little and we have a little cry together over it, but then she’s off again.   And her insulin pump that she started wearing last year at the end of January has been wonderful and her A1C’s (a test they use to look at blood sugar levels over the past three months)  have been really good, so that is encouraging.  I try so hard not to get frustrated with myself and with her when she eats something and we forget to bolus and her sugar gets out of whack.   But really,  there doesn’t seem to be much of a point to strive for perfection with blood sugar control because even things like her getting really upset can affect her  levels.   It is what it is.   It’s a treatable manageable disease that God has allowed into our lives for His purpose and His glory and we accept it — sometimes rail heavily against it but I know that God understands that we still feel pain even when accepting His will.

Maybe things like this are put into our lives to make us look forward to heaven more… no diabetes in heaven, hurrah!   I’m just thankful that we have Sarah and that she is healthy and that we get to enjoy everyday with our precious daughter who is growing up so fast!!!

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And I love the way she doesn’t care that her pump is out there for the world to see,  in fact I think it’s great.

Here’s this verse AGAIN that we can cling too;  I can’t get enough of it…

 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.  Romans 8:18

Heaven is going to make all this so worth it!

Amen.

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7 thoughts on “Mama Pancreas

  1. Hi,
    I’m a 21year old T1D I’ve had it for 17years and got offered a pump 7years ago but have been to scared to try it because I feel like I wouldn’t be in control and worry about putting in new sites. But I can’t get any better control being on shots even though I’m 12+ a day.
    Would you be able to tell me the pros and cons of a pump?

  2. Sarah is spunky and she is a trouper if anyone will show diabetes who is boss she will. As Chris and I have said she is going to go places and make changes and maybe someday to help others!!! Sarah you are something else little one!! Miss you

  3. Your posts are always an encouragement to me, Lisa!
    So thankful for the hope that we have! Yes, heaven will be awesome!
    I love the visual of a huge hand holding us gently and securely inside of it… God has Sarah (and all of you) in the palm of His hand and nothing happens without His knowing and allowing.
    Thanks for sharing your lives with us!

  4. Sarah is so brave, it almost makes it easy to forget how difficult and constant a battle diabetes is. I truly feel God is preparing her for something in her future, that she will be a rock solid woman of perseverance and faith, but with compassion as one who knows suffering.

    And you- mama pancreas. ❤️❤️❤️ Your “carry on” spirit inspires me constantly.

  5. Lisa, thanks for the up dates. I miss you guys so much. Im happy that things are going well for all of you.

    During a lunch hour you should stop by. I’m sure everyone would be thrilled to see you all. Give a big hug to those girls from me.
    Take Care
    Love Melinda Murphy

    Sent from my iPhone

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  6. I love how you handle all of this, you are such an amazing mother with such a heart of compassion and caring. Your children will all be forever blessed because they were given to you. And tell Sarah that I am so in awe of her resilience and strength, she is such a warrior.

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